This feels

you have got to be kidding me.

this is bullshit. good job hannah you fucked up again.

maybe you just shouldn't have met me at all.

maybe it's time

for me to get my tattoo ^^ hmmmm am quite excited thinking about it. need to wait for V to get back to me cause i don't want to get it done alone though.

in work-related news (yes, I am working. at shell house. not pumping petrol though, i'm in the communications department being a slave to this mother bitch who makes my life a living hell). oh wait. i just said everything i wanted to say in the brackets. lol. i am so miserable but i am trying to take all the shit she says to me with a pinch of salt.

my life has pretty much been a bore, really. the occasional time spent with the girlies but haze has left for bintan- coming back on sunday and leaving for melb on monday. and she'll be gone for two months how lovely.

i just read cheryl's blog she's leaving for perth in july. how fast is that?! oh god i haven't met the mg girls in so long.
I hate that I don't meet them anymore and it isn't cause they're not trying. it's always just the wrong timing for me. sigh. and work isn't making it any easier. these days i come home read my book and sleep. wake up go to work repeat cycle. only thing new is that i've quit smoking... for now. i guess. hopefully for good. after my dad owned my ass one morning when he decided to snoop around in my bag. but it's all for the best!

excuse the child-like grammar. i am too tired to function and it is only 1:25 in the afternoon. what the.

Change.

"If you are going to fall in love with me,

it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible."